loss

I feel so lost.
As though the world has fallen down around me.
It seems noone can ever truly understand the pain that I feel.
I have lost two innocent lives is so little time
And it just doesn’t seem fair.
I keep wondering what I have done to deserve this much pain
And I just can’t seem to find the answer.
I just wanted to keep my baby so bad that it rips me apart every minute.
I feel so alone when I should be surrounded.
I fell abandoned in a time of such need.
I don’t know why I am being punished
Or why HE felt the need to take these lives form me.
I am slowly dying inside and it’s so HARD to stay strong.
I need help but I have none.
I have a child and know that I should be happy with just having her
But I still feel bereft
I can only wonder when the pain will stop or even if it ever will.
I can only hope that god will hold me close
That time will help ease the pain that suffocates me